WELCOME TO HEARTBREAK

I lay my head to rest, but my brain begins to reminesce
It’s a dance of duality, a ying yang
About love, and lost love, and love, and lost love again
The matter of my calvaria needs the calvary
It’s spinning in circles, about to escape the orbit
But I can’t see, feels like I’m radioactive

It’s so loud; the lub-dub, it’s tangible, it’s broken
Maybe, even beyond repair, No! Wait, Yes! Beyond repair
My thoughts, they’re racing with time, and about to win
But my legs, they’re fatigued here, and strong there
How a lover plays with your love and makes you low

The facade, it’s a kingsman, has to be intact, and it’s exhaustive
So at night I lay, shed a few tears, wipe them, and shed more
Hoping, praying, that you come nearer or leave into the nothingness
That my eyes may never behold a fading beauty
And my ears, never to hear whispers of your hellos

It is, indeed, it is, a Rubik’s cube, such a beautiful mess
Not even Rumi can fathom; to bet my last breath on you
I did, oh yes I did; the serendipity, the dilemma, the near but forbidden ecstasy
How life fades, like a man with slit catotids; a peaceful torture
How tides turn, like Saul and Paul, may the gods forgive us

I didn’t come here looking for you, maybe so
I came here looking for the piece of myself I left in you
I came here to return the piece of yourself left in me
I came here not for you, only to take what is mine and give back what is yours
But now I’m here, and don’t know whether to give and take
It’s a trap; don’t fall for it, it’s a dream; wake up

I die inside a thousand times, your eye sees it, your heart feels it
I mean it when I say “I’m not okay”, but nobody knows
How the air I breathe is tainted with so many faint hopes and promises
I write about a girl; I don’t know her, I don’t hate her
But I read; she could have been a flower, but she dropped before she blossomed
Now she’s dead, lower the casket, I can feel her daring us, lower the casket